Timing

We had just finished a 6 month treatment cycle for infertility and still had not become pregnant. The doctor said that my body needed to rest for the next 6 months. Thus, Matt and I started to wonder what the next step in our infertility journey would be. Rather than wait around for six months we wanted to be actively working towards something.

Adoption had ALWAYS been something we wanted to do as a couple. Even before we were married, we had both had separate experiences that confirmed to us that adoption would be part of our lives. So when we got married, we wondered what the "timing" would be. We had visited the option of adoption in May of 2012 and started with LDS adoption services. We did the orientation and the 10 hours of training and worked on getting the infertility report filled out by our doctor. We even talked with my uncle who is an adoption attorney to see how the process would play out. However, nothing really felt right for us to move forward...until now.

It was the first week in January (2013) when we started exploring adoption once more. We started talking about what our options would be. Matt had just graduated from Brigham Young University. We both would be working full-time. We would be able to save more money for an adoption than we could have previous to this time. We have constantly been prayerful about children and ways to get them to this earth. Adoption once again was at the forefront of our minds.

January 6th was Fast-Sunday. This is an opportunity within our faith/religion to go without food for 2 meals and therefore allow our soul or spirit to become more in-tune with God. We wanted to be sure that adoption was what God was directing us to do. It was a really spiritual sabbath and as I sat in the last meeting of my church worship, I turned around and saw a beautiful woman-blonde hair, about my age and she was holding a beautiful black baby boy. Immediately I felt peace, excitement, joy, happiness, and overwhelmed with love. I knew that I needed to talk with that woman. After the meeting I went to her and ask if by chance she had adopted that precious baby. She replied in the affirmative. I told her that my husband and I had been fasting (going without food) because we wanted to know whether we should move in the direction of adoption.

She then proceeded to tell me her adoption story and encouraged me to do everything I could to be part of adoption because it is such a blessing on so many levels. As Matt and I left the church that day, I sat in the passenger seat of the car and Matt turned to me and said, "You are SO calm! I can't believe it!" I told him I knew for certain that we it was TIME to adopt. After that we felt so excited. We decided to call our families that same evening and tell them of our plans.

The reaction was SO positive. I felt so much support from our family. Previously, Matt and I had been more quiet and reserved about our infertility journey and I had always felt anxiety about telling our family about our sacred experiences. However, now feeling good about telling others, I felt the support from them and I no longer felt alone in my infertility. Adoption is wonderful! It's already blessing our lives:)